undeserving

God is SO good and faithful to me! we have been struggling some with finances since spending so much on the wedding and then on the heels of that celebration we celebrated matt's graduation. anyhoo...i still feel hesitant at times to give God what is His and this week was probably the worst. i knew i would tithe because that's what we've committed to do, but i was literally facing overdraft of my house payment if i did. i mailed the house payment on june 8 or 9, which offered plenty of time for it to reach them by the june 16th deadline. in fact, i was sure it would reach them at the latest by the 15th. so i tithe on the 14th and pray a big prayer of faith. i looked at my account online on the 15th - no, it had not cleared and i breathed a sigh of relief because i was sure my paycheck would be on my desk monday evening (the 15th). guess what? it wasn't! so, hesitantly i ask - God, can you hold that check another day? thinking and knowing that it would be of God if it didn't clear by the 16th! it did not! i will deposit my check and sing His praises and will undoubtedly find the house payment clear tomorrow! He never fails! why do i hesitate or worry? i am SO undeserving - but He wants to show me His love and unfailing grace and i am grateful!
my next faith adventure is when i let matt go to mexico this friday. it's his birthday and he will go with his friends to puerto vallarta for a week. God will have to hold him in His hands all week and protect him from any illness that may come his way. i KNOW He will do it - he loves matt more than i do!
undeserving but so grateful.