faith

i've read about faith, i've preached about faith and most days i've claimed to possess faith. but this week faith is a difficult discipline for me. i have to have faith in so many areas - the boeing situation and our lack of income and most difficult my children (just to name a couple). faith that God knows what i need before i need it and He will supply my needs, and faith that God loves my precious babies so much more than i could or ever imagine that i could.
i struggle with my fears as matt is in a difficult place in his young life. he's struggling with some depression over life issues and i for the first time can't kiss him and make everything all better. we are both learning the "one day at a time" stuff and are also learning to put it all in God's hands and trust.
it can be hard, but as i just preached today He can use me so much more effectively when i admit my imperfections, fears and struggles and give them to Him.
today i choose to trust Him.