so, it's been over a month since i've written about my fabulous life. dennis and i continued on our "high" relationship-wise for another couple of weeks. then, it happened...he went into his cave not to return for weeks! he stood me up for a home movie/dinner date by going to bed sick 1/2 hour after i spoke to him to ask what to bring home for dinner! no sign of illness...nothing. of course i used my very expensive therapy learned skills and told him how upset that made me. he stayed in his cave and every week or so i would ask "when do you think you're going to snap out of this and talk to me?" to which he replied "ummm, pretty soon." so, needless to say by the time we saw john last night it had been over three weeks since the "stand up" and i was very emotional and WAY overdue for some attention. i was so ready for john to jump on me about not being needy etc. but, to my surprise he pretty much slammed dennis for "torturing" me and letting his father's abuse control him and in turn controlling me. when we left the take home from that $120.00 hour was that HE is to pursue me and john said "it's not about WHEN you'll do it, it's NOW." i don't have a lot of hope, but we'll see.
jen is home and the wedding is in full gear - have had appointments with the wedding and reception coordinators, another one with the florist, met with the caterer and ordered 300 cupcakes from sam's club! she's addressed most all the invitations and they will go in the mail this week! i found the perfect dress - finally! jen's dress is at david's for the alterations and we'll p/u in early may when she's home. it's getting very exciting! lhcf had a shower for her last saturday at babs house that was well attended and fun. she got lots of nice stuff from her registry and some nice nighttime wear! kimberlea is giving her a shower this saturday and we hope for lots of fun there too!
kimmie went to spain to visit kate on the 16th and is to return today!
i've been 100% on ww since the 14th and feeling some sense of control FINALLY! lost 8.2 the first week and am shooting for 5 more this week - we'll see - that might be a bit optimistic.
i'm VERY stressed about money - i need about 10k to finish off this wedding and was hoping a refinance would give that to us, but i'm worried that with this economy the house value won't be up enough for that. either way we have to refinance by june because our a.r.m. expires then. stressful.
i'll trust God for it all though - he's so good to me and i'm very blessed despite everything.
it looks like matt will get to go to nnu if his sats come back with a descent score. i would LOVE it if he would buckle down, do well and really enjoy the college experience (and lose laura). :)
well, that's life as it is today.
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